HI
WEEEEEEEEEEEE I HAVEN'T BEEN BLOGGING FOR INASDJNASJHD YEARS ALREADY
I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO WRITE ACTUALLY
MAYBE I'LL JUST CONVERT THIS TO A COSBLOG LOL
..UMMMMM YES.
for the whole of june holidays i only had one shoot.
IB!!! 8DDDDDDD <3
before the shoot i was damn stressed out
i couldn't eat properly
i couldn't sleep properly
worrying about the shoot 24/7 argh sdhnsnda but it turns out alright! /O/
will upload camwhore shots next post LOLOLOL
ah, and cosfest is near...
problems arise 1 week before cosfest
my morgiana wig not arriving on time. FML.
and i have to spend that extra money to buy a new wig so that i will be able to cosplay on cosfest with my team mates LOL
irresponsible tb seller..just whatever. was damn pissed off actually. not only my wig, even reika's hakuryuu wig and alice's garry wig also. and i ordered 1.5 months before the actual event wtf
yes, i was damn pissed okay.
this must be another factor that contributes to my ultra short temper recently.
and i'm having crazy moodswings recently sob
health not very good too i must say, mentally weak and i'm getting dizzy time to time
sorethroat now LOL, must be too much durians and the weather also .
so, how many days left to cosfest..i think it's 7..hahahaha or 6days
i think i must write down the list of things i am left undone LOL
so day 1 i'm cosing morgiana! /O/
i'm done with her costume..so i'm left with her metal vessel, and i need to buy those strings for her legs...what was that called....oh and her necklace! /O/ .....necklace since it's around her neck. wig styling too
and day 2 i'm cosing ren kougyoku! same series hahaha
i'm done with her dress... except for the white cirles on the black part. need to paint
and ... wig styling and her metal vessel and .... a lot of stuff.. GOD DYING
hahahhaahah....sigh....tenchou shoot tomorrow... good luck to self
..
..
.
people said i change for the better, because my attitude was really sucky last time.
1. i lose my temper easily
2. i am really immature, maybe that's why i am not very likable.
..i didn't even realize i changed, but people said i did.
but maybe because 2 years have pass, and i have grown to be more mature? //lol//
maybe i actually know how to think before i say something now.
or so i think. but now i actually think i am more straightforward with stuff than i am last time.
the friends that knows me since 2 years ago, you guys are really honest with your first impression of me, thank you so much!
well i actually don't know what to write anymore...
but i guess people do change, so did i.
i wonder how many people actually did feel like killing me last time lol.
but no matter how i attitude you guys last time
i just want to say, even though i did not show it on the outside, i really do love you guys!!!
..so please do not misunderstand..
i am very sorry nami ...last time, i used to diao you alot. haahaahah
but you are great and you actually don't bear grudges i guess...so yep, i actually do treasure the time we spend together 8'D taking neoprints..and all...
and my other lovelies, i love you..let's all go japan next time!!! together!!
i feel so empty nowadays
..anyway i had fun with Aya and Reika today!! thanks both of you! >w<
so yep.. it was very sad to hear from people that they don't really like you in the past
but now that i have changed, which i don't really think i had, they are kinda more okay with me now.
but since that was like 2 years ago, i probably should forget about it
but thinking back 2 years ago, i probably didn't know tthat they didn't really like me, and i just talk to them as if nothing hahaha, so yep, i guess it's really quite awkward
but oh well, i should forget about it and move on with my life 8'D
but anyway, i couldn't really keep promises nowadays
i am busy with alot of stuff. i can't even keep promises to myself...
shoots with people that i promised, but i couldn't really make time out for it.
i am actually feeling quite apologetic to my friends that i disappoint.
..
and my english really do suck a lot i think ..//lol//
thinking of it, i've been meeting aya like almost everyday to study
i am really grateful to you and jiayan for making time out to teach me math and to study with me!
actually, i really can't study on my own, or even at home.
and really, sometimes i wonder if i am a hindrance, but i didn't dare ask. LOL
so i hope not... hope you'll not think that way because i will probably feel very..
very..........
..........
just very sad i think . < my lack of knowledge in vocabulary. i can't think of the right word to describe my feelings, oh god. LOL
oh anyway, thanks reika and aya for such an awesome day! >w<
i had fun!!!!
thank you guys!! >w<
...
sometimes i think i am just helpless in many ways
i couldn't really do much stuff to help other people.
my studies suck, i am not good in the stuff i enjoy doing, i just don't have a thing i am good at, and people just keep on verbal attacking me. //lol//
....don't worry! my heart is not made of glass!!!!!
i won't give up easily!!!
doesn't feel like i have improved at all..since 2009
started cosplay since then...well okay, from end of 2009-end of 2010, there is definitely improvements, because i actually don't know how to put make up, but i improved!! hahaha
didn't really have money back then too...and well, now as well
so i only bought the basics for make up, powder foundation, mascara, pencil eyeline
and since then, i've been practising make up with yuukiko!
yeah, i basically went over to her house every sunday/saturday to do make up
well i can say i really SUCK big time.
even till now, i can't say my make up skills is really good.
my eyelining sucks and most of the time i rely on eyelashes to cover up my flaws in my eyelining LOL
and i still can't grasp the art of eyeshadow!!!! //shot//
then, i realize that even though the eyes play a important role in bringing out a character, i neglected one of the most important aspect, the contouring!!!!
then, i have been doing research on how cosplayers contour their nose, oh and i tried.
BUT I FAILED!!!
omg it looks so easy but the hardest part is when you're doing it on yourself
argh, i think it's just my nose that is hard to contour!
anyway..i don't think i have improved at all. .. [ okay maybe my sewing lol ]
i realize i have been lagging behind many of my friends
they improved greatly while i am still the same old me T_T
they all had became beautiful!!! <<< well under the effects of make up
but i look the same with make up!! WHY!!!!
i tried manly make up HAAHAHHAH but anyway I FAILED HAHAHAHHAH
i can't be manly!! T_T
.....i want to wake up one day finding myself SO BISHIE that i died because i am SO HANDSOME HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
maybe my next life.
now now, study is more important!
went to arab street yesterday with nisa after school to buy cloth! /O/
then met up with izumi! < she's funny8{D
originally wanted to buy Tenchou's cloth but then..i couldn't resist...so i bought cloth for another character 8'DDD
8'DDD planning to debut on march holidays if i can finish sewing in time [ and finding all the damn small accessories, also multiple belts ] D8 D8 D8
^ drew this in class cause i'm super bored, like, really bored
i think i already gave up on POA, must as well skip POA o level exams. D8
completed art piece yay~~~~~~
doesn't look 100% like the originally piece, i need to improve on my skills!
//highstandardforself//
guilty crown members coscard ^
everyone really printed guilty crown hahahahah
originally wanted to print kururi but... since everyone is printing guilty crown..i might as well..
going to study with ayaya later!!
chemistry and math!
recently i really have a huge boost in confidence on my chemistry lol!
because i got full marks for 2 LA's *___*
and for the latest one, i got 1 mark higher than...joseph.
YESSS I REALLY CAN'T STAND HIM GOING " oh, i don't need to study for chemistry since i already am so good in it "
FUCK, SERIOUSLY
he got 9/10 and i got 10/10 8'DDDD
ahaahahahahahaha, for the upcoming chemistry test, i'll do my best too...
.................
i was bored! hahahahahha
yeah received some of the photos from cosfest!
i look.....shitty in some photos
it's as if the photographer owed me a huge amount of money.
i only look good in some photos ;_;
why is morgiana the same height as me!!!!
as this is the first time i'm crossdressing...
of course..i can't pose like a guy, i can't sit like a guy.. i can't....do manly poses 8(
so yep....
do not worry, there will still be room for improvements!!
no more manly poses next time!!!
COSFEST DAY 1
yeapppppppppp
i learnt 2 things from yesterday!!
1. never double cos
2. bring a luggage
it was hell yesterday!! < for the first half of the day
..i had t rush, change out to alibaba and meet with junko and nami
BUT!! i was dragged to take neoprint 8')
and anyway...
i was so pissed off after that, not because of the neoprint, but due to other stuff. =_=
but yeah, since i am such a lovely lady that don't bear grudges, and i get over stuff easily [ depends ], and to make myself happy, i forgave! << LOL
sometimes i don't even know why i am angry...my fault..anyway..
but yeap, cosing with Junko and Namiko!
it was like 6pm+ and then they want to shoot 8(
I WANT TO CHANGE OUT PREAZE!!
Me : 小女子要 change out!!!!!!!
Namiko : seme 要change out!!!!
Junko : 屁股啦你们！
and i had muscle cramp after that 8)
and i was so happy namiko said i look good as blonde but omg i look shitty plz T_T
it was also my first time crossdressing so i had no idea how to act like a man!!!
my poses was awkward and alibaba fan probably gonna parang me anytime!!!!
it was such a rush to meet junko that i dont even have the time to change my make up, thus i look girly yesterday 8)
anyway i can't do any happy birthday kiki!! shoot yesterday 8(
the lighting was bad and i dont look good
maybe i should just shoot at the toilet LOL
still, didn't enjoy this year cosfest..
AFA was wayyyyyyy more awesome. and i had more fun at AFA last year 8(
but still, this year was not far too bad!
i'm glad i am able to meet more new people like Mein, sora, xero, more new awesome people!! < i can't remember lawl.
it was so awkward with poses yesterday...i was so...damn...embarrassed....i can't cos guys really i want to be girly forever 8')
nevertheless...it was fun being alibaba..............
^ I CAN'T ROTATE THIS PHOTO I'LL JUST LET IT BE
AND NISA CAN NEVER LOOK STRAIGHT
^ all the guilty crown coscards hahahah!!
..
..
...
O3O
...
.........
yep i didn't always bring my camera with me so there is only these few photos 8(
.......
then we have dinner
then ... yeah.....
*goes back doing homework*
HI
WEEEEEEEEEEEE I HAVEN'T BEEN BLOGGING FOR INASDJNASJHD YEARS ALREADY
I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT TO WRITE ACTUALLY
MAYBE I'LL JUST CONVERT THIS TO A COSBLOG LOL
..UMMMMM YES.
for the whole of june holidays i only had one shoot.
IB!!! 8DDDDDDD <3
before the shoot i was damn stressed out
i couldn't eat properly
i couldn't sleep properly
worrying about the shoot 24/7 argh sdhnsnda but it turns out alright! /O/
will upload camwhore shots next post LOLOLOL
ah, and cosfest is near...
problems arise 1 week before cosfest
my morgiana wig not arriving on time. FML.
and i have to spend that extra money to buy a new wig so that i will be able to cosplay on cosfest with my team mates LOL
irresponsible tb seller..just whatever. was damn pissed off actually. not only my wig, even reika's hakuryuu wig and alice's garry wig also. and i ordered 1.5 months before the actual event wtf
yes, i was damn pissed okay.
this must be another factor that contributes to my ultra short temper recently.
and i'm having crazy moodswings recently sob
health not very good too i must say, mentally weak and i'm getting dizzy time to time
sorethroat now LOL, must be too much durians and the weather also .
so, how many days left to cosfest..i think it's 7..hahahaha or 6days
i think i must write down the list of things i am left undone LOL
so day 1 i'm cosing morgiana! /O/
i'm done with her costume..so i'm left with her metal vessel, and i need to buy those strings for her legs...what was that called....oh and her necklace! /O/ .....necklace since it's around her neck. wig styling too
and day 2 i'm cosing ren kougyoku! same series hahaha
i'm done with her dress... except for the white cirles on the black part. need to paint
and ... wig styling and her metal vessel and .... a lot of stuff.. GOD DYING
hahahhaahah....sigh....tenchou shoot tomorrow... good luck to self
..
..
.
people said i change for the better, because my attitude was really sucky last time.
1. i lose my temper easily
2. i am really immature, maybe that's why i am not very likable.
..i didn't even realize i changed, but people said i did.
but maybe because 2 years have pass, and i have grown to be more mature? //lol//
maybe i actually know how to think before i say something now.
or so i think. but now i actually think i am more straightforward with stuff than i am last time.
the friends that knows me since 2 years ago, you guys are really honest with your first impression of me, thank you so much!
well i actually don't know what to write anymore...
but i guess people do change, so did i.
i wonder how many people actually did feel like killing me last time lol.
but no matter how i attitude you guys last time
i just want to say, even though i did not show it on the outside, i really do love you guys!!!
..so please do not misunderstand..
i am very sorry nami ...last time, i used to diao you alot. haahaahah
but you are great and you actually don't bear grudges i guess...so yep, i actually do treasure the time we spend together 8'D taking neoprints..and all...
and my other lovelies, i love you..let's all go japan next time!!! together!!
i feel so empty nowadays
..anyway i had fun with Aya and Reika today!! thanks both of you! >w<
so yep.. it was very sad to hear from people that they don't really like you in the past
but now that i have changed, which i don't really think i had, they are kinda more okay with me now.
but since that was like 2 years ago, i probably should forget about it
but thinking back 2 years ago, i probably didn't know tthat they didn't really like me, and i just talk to them as if nothing hahaha, so yep, i guess it's really quite awkward
but oh well, i should forget about it and move on with my life 8'D
but anyway, i couldn't really keep promises nowadays
i am busy with alot of stuff. i can't even keep promises to myself...
shoots with people that i promised, but i couldn't really make time out for it.
i am actually feeling quite apologetic to my friends that i disappoint.
..
and my english really do suck a lot i think ..//lol//
thinking of it, i've been meeting aya like almost everyday to study
i am really grateful to you and jiayan for making time out to teach me math and to study with me!
actually, i really can't study on my own, or even at home.
and really, sometimes i wonder if i am a hindrance, but i didn't dare ask. LOL
so i hope not... hope you'll not think that way because i will probably feel very..
very..........
..........
just very sad i think . < my lack of knowledge in vocabulary. i can't think of the right word to describe my feelings, oh god. LOL
oh anyway, thanks reika and aya for such an awesome day! >w<
i had fun!!!!
thank you guys!! >w<
...
sometimes i think i am just helpless in many ways
i couldn't really do much stuff to help other people.
my studies suck, i am not good in the stuff i enjoy doing, i just don't have a thing i am good at, and people just keep on verbal attacking me. //lol//
....don't worry! my heart is not made of glass!!!!!
i won't give up easily!!!
doesn't feel like i have improved at all..since 2009
started cosplay since then...well okay, from end of 2009-end of 2010, there is definitely improvements, because i actually don't know how to put make up, but i improved!! hahaha
didn't really have money back then too...and well, now as well
so i only bought the basics for make up, powder foundation, mascara, pencil eyeline
and since then, i've been practising make up with yuukiko!
yeah, i basically went over to her house every sunday/saturday to do make up
well i can say i really SUCK big time.
even till now, i can't say my make up skills is really good.
my eyelining sucks and most of the time i rely on eyelashes to cover up my flaws in my eyelining LOL
and i still can't grasp the art of eyeshadow!!!! //shot//
then, i realize that even though the eyes play a important role in bringing out a character, i neglected one of the most important aspect, the contouring!!!!
then, i have been doing research on how cosplayers contour their nose, oh and i tried.
BUT I FAILED!!!
omg it looks so easy but the hardest part is when you're doing it on yourself
argh, i think it's just my nose that is hard to contour!
anyway..i don't think i have improved at all. .. [ okay maybe my sewing lol ]
i realize i have been lagging behind many of my friends
they improved greatly while i am still the same old me T_T
they all had became beautiful!!! <<< well under the effects of make up
but i look the same with make up!! WHY!!!!
i tried manly make up HAAHAHHAH but anyway I FAILED HAHAHAHHAH
i can't be manly!! T_T
.....i want to wake up one day finding myself SO BISHIE that i died because i am SO HANDSOME HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
maybe my next life.
now now, study is more important!
went to arab street yesterday with nisa after school to buy cloth! /O/
then met up with izumi! < she's funny8{D
originally wanted to buy Tenchou's cloth but then..i couldn't resist...so i bought cloth for another character 8'DDD
8'DDD planning to debut on march holidays if i can finish sewing in time [ and finding all the damn small accessories, also multiple belts ] D8 D8 D8
^ drew this in class cause i'm super bored, like, really bored
i think i already gave up on POA, must as well skip POA o level exams. D8
completed art piece yay~~~~~~
doesn't look 100% like the originally piece, i need to improve on my skills!
//highstandardforself//
guilty crown members coscard ^
everyone really printed guilty crown hahahahah
originally wanted to print kururi but... since everyone is printing guilty crown..i might as well..
going to study with ayaya later!!
chemistry and math!
recently i really have a huge boost in confidence on my chemistry lol!
because i got full marks for 2 LA's *___*
and for the latest one, i got 1 mark higher than...joseph.
YESSS I REALLY CAN'T STAND HIM GOING " oh, i don't need to study for chemistry since i already am so good in it "
FUCK, SERIOUSLY
he got 9/10 and i got 10/10 8'DDDD
ahaahahahahahaha, for the upcoming chemistry test, i'll do my best too...
.................
i was bored! hahahahahha
yeah received some of the photos from cosfest!
i look.....shitty in some photos
it's as if the photographer owed me a huge amount of money.
i only look good in some photos ;_;
why is morgiana the same height as me!!!!
as this is the first time i'm crossdressing...
of course..i can't pose like a guy, i can't sit like a guy.. i can't....do manly poses 8(
so yep....
do not worry, there will still be room for improvements!!
no more manly poses next time!!!
COSFEST DAY 1
yeapppppppppp
i learnt 2 things from yesterday!!
1. never double cos
2. bring a luggage
it was hell yesterday!! < for the first half of the day
..i had t rush, change out to alibaba and meet with junko and nami
BUT!! i was dragged to take neoprint 8')
and anyway...
i was so pissed off after that, not because of the neoprint, but due to other stuff. =_=
but yeah, since i am such a lovely lady that don't bear grudges, and i get over stuff easily [ depends ], and to make myself happy, i forgave! << LOL
sometimes i don't even know why i am angry...my fault..anyway..
but yeap, cosing with Junko and Namiko!
it was like 6pm+ and then they want to shoot 8(
I WANT TO CHANGE OUT PREAZE!!
Me : 小女子要 change out!!!!!!!
Namiko : seme 要change out!!!!
Junko : 屁股啦你们！
and i had muscle cramp after that 8)
and i was so happy namiko said i look good as blonde but omg i look shitty plz T_T
it was also my first time crossdressing so i had no idea how to act like a man!!!
my poses was awkward and alibaba fan probably gonna parang me anytime!!!!
it was such a rush to meet junko that i dont even have the time to change my make up, thus i look girly yesterday 8)
anyway i can't do any happy birthday kiki!! shoot yesterday 8(
the lighting was bad and i dont look good
maybe i should just shoot at the toilet LOL
still, didn't enjoy this year cosfest..
AFA was wayyyyyyy more awesome. and i had more fun at AFA last year 8(
but still, this year was not far too bad!
i'm glad i am able to meet more new people like Mein, sora, xero, more new awesome people!! < i can't remember lawl.
it was so awkward with poses yesterday...i was so...damn...embarrassed....i can't cos guys really i want to be girly forever 8')
nevertheless...it was fun being alibaba..............
^ I CAN'T ROTATE THIS PHOTO I'LL JUST LET IT BE
AND NISA CAN NEVER LOOK STRAIGHT
^ all the guilty crown coscards hahahah!!
..
..
...
O3O
...
.........
yep i didn't always bring my camera with me so there is only these few photos 8(
.......
then we have dinner
then ... yeah.....
*goes back doing homework*
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